Today I had several situations where I felt triggered – in a supermarket, when people behaved rude and I just wanted to yell, the second one at home when my Mum had one of her “you are responsible for my shitty life and l, no one can help me” fits, which usually makes me so angry.
Today I counted breaths and stayed relatively calm. Later I felt into my body, trying to feel it and sit and breathe. It really started to dissolve. Yes, I cried, but then I felt much better.
I felt like I can change my reaction to these triggers – and am the one in charge.
Yes, I felt so right to be upset or angry – but these situations had never gone away by me yelling or crying at the people who “wronged” me.
Time to try a different approach. Time to breathe and feel it in my body.
I actually feel relief. I feel my body releasing tension.
And I promise myself to try again next time. One trigger at a time.
This is going to be an interesting experiment – stay tuned.