Today I feel torn between going out and to a big birthday celebration, for which I prepared a special gift, and needing time alone, doing what I really want to do, which is writing.
I haven’t been writing much during September and I feel grumpy.
I am angry at myself.
I know many people who’ll come tonight to the party and I know it could be fun, maybe. The main point is that I have to go 90 minutes each way by public transport and I feel tired thinking of it. I’d have to leave early to catch the last train.
I am angry because of the things I’d get done in these 3 hours.
Time is precious right now, because I have a job where I need to focus, especially during the training weeks.
I am thinking about arguments to get myself to the party and now I know something is off.
So I check in with my body, to release that tension and to feel what decision serves me best.
That makes it very clear and easy, my body relaxed immediately when I thought of a cozy weekend at home – so I will do this.
I feel better now – my body always tells the truth. It’s my job to listen and act accordingly.
mycreativewings 
Sometimes, rest is all that is needed to make us feel at home with ourselves, with our decisions, with writing 🙂 the party may have been missed, but the gift can still be given I guess.
You sound just like me. I’m a HSP (highly sensitive person) and some times the big events tire me out before I even think about it. I’d much rather stay at home and retreat. Outings can be fun but they have to be done the “right way” with me or else I get overwhelmed and exhausted. I’m glad you listened to yourself and will enjoy your Saturday!
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