I just got back from an assessment center, only half-day, but I am tired.
I noticed that even if I am feeling good and experienced and have all the requested qualifications, these events make me feel tired.
Okay, one thing might be no coffeine, because only water, no coffee available.
On the other hand I always start to feel a competition, start to try to fit in the special “job-box”.
Even if I know deep inside that there are no boxes in this universe, just limitless possibilities.It seems to be deeply wired and trying to fit in makes me feel tired because I cut parts of me off.
Knowing I did my best in my actual state helps. However I still would love us all to stand out instead of trying to fit in.
I am in a mode now where I don’t actually care about the results.
I just want to be myself – and I wonder if the only way for me is freelance or my own business.
Where do you try to fit in?